first post in 3 years??????????????????????????????????????

 hey

i am a little sad today. i think it has to do with PMS, or maybe because i'm listening to Carrie & Lowell. 

what do you want? uhmm, i want friends? i'm lonely lol. i'm 26 this year, can you believe that? i cant. 

my mind belongs to a 16 year old but my body is 26. i haven't wrote/typed in a long time, please forgive. my grammar is garbage now. i am sorry. 

why are we typing this? i don't know... just thought i should type out whatever that im thinking of right now. its 4:15pm now, im sad. i want to go home and not think about work anymore. just realized as im reading what i just ttyped, my thoughts jump from one subject to another. omg, i think im crazy. 

do you look forward to this long weekend? uhhhhhhhh, i think so. i dont have any plans, i never have plans anyway. i'll just stay home again, and cry about my life. my life sucks, im complaining again. why do i always complain, why cant i do something about it. everything i try to do gives me anxiety . fuck, im scared!